He Always Knows.

Lately I've really been struggling with discouragement - it's really hard to keep thinking and doing the things I do when it seems like other people here don't care at all and their lives are fine and sometimes better. Like the KJV thing. No one else here cares, at least not anyone I've met, and it sure seems like they're doing fine and love the Lord. Or the dating thing. It doesn't look like casual dating is really hurting these people that much. But I've never done it because I always said it's practicing for divorce instead of life-long marriage and somehow I'm still the one that's alone while EVERY OTHER PERSON in this blessed school is dating or almost-dating someone. And every day somebody else gets engaged. I mean, why keep holding out on these things I thought were really important when no one else does and their lives are just fine? It's really frustrating and EXTREMELY discouraging.
So today it all came crashing down and I cried like ten times and finally I told the Lord that I need encouragement right now or I'm just going to quit trying. So I'm in the music library attempting to concentrate on homework (big success obviously, since I'm blogging) and I put my iTunes on shuffle, and what comes on? Guess. Go ahead.




"Oh, the Deep, Deep Love of Jesus."




I put my head down and cried for the eleventh time since 9:00 this morning and thanked the Lord for listening. He always knows. Even when I think he doesn't.




Leah